#SOC Sunday: I took on too much this year.

I took on too much this year.

And this week I finally crash and burned.  

Today I accused Chris of sucking up the Internet and yelled at him to get off so I could take a Poli-Sci exam and then I cried something ridiculous.  Babies don't even fake cry like I did.  I don't even know wtf I was even crying for.  He looked at me like I was crazy and I don't blame him.  I calmed myself down, was a whole lot embarrassed to be so dramatic and attempted to take the exam and 10 questions in - I closed the tab.  Me, all me.  No one to blame but myself.  And then I really cried.  Tears and tears.  Like wtf am I doing.  Why did I do this to myself.  TAKE ON SO MUCH.  

Homeschooling, full-time college course load, blogging and event planning all together with running a family with a baby!  Coupled with the fact that the NHL lockout is hurting us financially (Chris is only working part-time, I went on a one year leave of absence till September 2013) and the Holidays are looking grim.  I just had enough of EVERYTHING (Election anxiety, Sandy, money worries, deadlines).  Took on too much.

Everyone makes homeschooling look easy... Duke is a fast learner but I don't think I'm just teacher material.  I know, I know.  I've reinforced the theory that parents are every kid's first teacher and I truly believe it but I'm not made for creating curriculum, developing ideas and following through.  It is hard to stick to the plan of a homeschool day with a cute baby.  Duke and I would start off on schedule and then I'd have to stop teaching to feed Omar and then Duke would want to kiss and play with him.  How can I say no?  I got sucked into laying around with the baby too.  It's a wonder how we got any work done!

This much I know, I'm looking forward to Winter break.